Sometimes I hate humanity.
And the hate goes on and grows up.
I'm feeling scared by this hate.
This friday I'll go to my doctor. I must stop. I can't go down now that I'm on the top. It was hard to be on the top. I can't give up.

I can't smile, I can't think, I can't talk. And my dear Gwendal sounds like another empty music.
I try to smile to my friends. I'm trying to be happy, and it's useless.
I only want to die, die, die. Stop crying, only stop.

I think this is an experiment. In my visit to Ireland I discovered that I was forgetting my english.
In my school I knew the grammar, I was a good student, and I loved English language. Now I have a job, I don't speak english yet. I can only speak or write with basic phrases, and I'm feeling very frustrated.
I can't remember grammar, all irregular verbs, the million words I've learned before. But, at least, I can understand written english (spoken it's a bit difficult by now)
So welcome to my folly. And, please, forgive me when I destroy a word or a phrase. I promise I will improve my English :)
Feel free to correct!